overjoyed, over looove, overwhelmed

this week, i have found myself in a heightened state of being both overjoyed and happy about work, projects, friendships and lovin', and then found myself overwhelmed by all the work, projects, friendships and lovin'.

some knob i hated myself for liking high school who may read this (good god, i hope he doesn't, but if you do, i'm not talking about you) used to write music that was above average for a high school kid. he wrote this song, if memory serves, called "can't slow down". i don't remember anything but the melody and those words, but i have thought it a bunch for the past few days and laughed that THAT was the song in my head.

i've gotten to a neat point in my career, after years of the badly-slotted shows, long hours and ridiculous politics - to here, the blessed place - where we are becoming showered with the fruit of that labor, maybe almost drowning it all. there's so much to do. SO MUCH! there's so many shows. there's so many projects. they're all worthwhile. and moreover, in life - there's so many people. there's so many wonderful old and new friends that you don't see enough of. they're certainly worthwhile.

how do you make time for it all?
i guess i'm just talking out loud, trying to figure that out right now.

one thing i believe in is throwing yourself completely into the things you choose to be in. whether it's relationships or activity, i'm in! sometimes, though, that takes serious energy. and with work, that means a free night, day, or thought is a rarity. i'd just like to be able to keep going and going without running out. hmm... how to not run out?

since i don't want things to slow, i have to find a way - a better way, of making the projects and work and friends continue to be the fuel. yes, being busy can be exhausting, but it's also the dream - so maybe being busy is also perpetual motion, a hybrid running off it's own electricity. or solar energy, but because we know the sun is due to come up again, and bring some new with it. that's all i've got.

all i'm saying? maybe the knob had a point with that song.