nightswimming

this evening, for a while, i was completely silent.

it was beautiful here today - 80 degrees, not a cloud in the sky. tonight, instead of doing much, i went down to the pool and finished my book. no one was out there for most of the time i was. it was the first time - in a long time -that i've been truly quiet, just silent.

i fall asleep to the tv. i am constantly listening to people talk. or performing onstage, or leading workshops, or passingtheclap, or laughing, or listening to white noise of some kind. even my thinking feels like someone's talking, a constant inner monologue of scriptstowrite and whattosaynexts.

but tonight, i lowered my ears under the water for a bit, so all i could hear was the current pulsing through the water, which sounded remarkably like a jet passing overhead. i heard geese honking, flying by. i heard crickets. i heard nothing.

it felt like time slowed down for a little bit.
it ruled.

<---also, something seemed really funny to me about this sign.