flip off.

something i hate about blogging is that when something real happens, i feel an obligation to talk about it, but i don't really want to, and i don't know what is okay to say or not. most people immediately surrounding me know about things, but some people slip through the cracks, and... well, whatever.

my brother had a heart attack this week.

he is doing well.

it was really, really terrifying to be away while it happened. really. i hate that i am here, the only one not there in columbus, already - but when things like this happen, i feel trapped and caged and like i've made a million wrong decisions along the way.

luckily, my brother did everything right. also luckily, i got on the next flight to columbus through southwest and made it home within about three hours. it was really remarkable.

when i was standing in the icu with my fam, i looked down and saw this little bottle of sodium de-something-inide, a blood thinner. i nervously played with it and then noticed the top read "flip off". you said it, bottle. i laughed. i took this pic.

i'll post a bit more when i feel like it's okay to.